*thanks and sorrys*

just wanted to say thanks and sorry to alot of people....

Ranjini
U've been so great and i am touched by every single thing u do for me, i have never had someone fret over me so much, i am not customed to being treated so well, i am sorry for my pessimism but i have always been treated like i need no help that now when u look after my needs it feels weird, sorry for hurting you with my questions and thanks alot for all u have done for me..u came to my camp with so much things for me when i was sick, u came from sembawang to send my mum her gift, you made me pineapple tarts cause i like it, i really dunno what i can do to repay all u have done for me, thanks idiot...

Roshi,
thanks for accompanying me that day in sim lim, i know u have been dealt a severe blow but i have learnt that whateva doesnt kill you makes you stronger,so take this as a lesson, a huge bad lesson and do what you think is best..okiez...im here if u need me always k...

Libbies,
i have been nagging at ya alot these few days and i guess i love you guys too much that i becoming your granddad, i believe i have said wat i can do and say, now its time to let u guys work things out on ur own, granddad is here when u need me but from now on drown if u have to learn how to swim...have fun guys and thanks for always puttin a smile on my face..

Lizzy,
i have never named u in my blog before simply because you didnt like it, in fact u dnt even like me calling you lizzy, i have grown stronger thanks to u and i owe alot of my confidence to u, i am not bein sarcastic, i am seriously crediting you for all that has happened to me, i know that you have ur reasons for doing all that you did to me and i am lookin at the silver lining for all the clouds that came my way, as i said, if it doesnt kill me, it makes me stronger, u almost killed me, but im still alive so yeah u made me stronger...i have seen u progress quite abit and i dnt worry that much about u now, i know that there is still a long way for ya but yeah its a start, i named you now because i remember i swore once upon you that i m here to help you open up, whether i did have an effect on u or not i dunno but u are starting to, i am glad that u are and i also swore(u wanted this), that once u do, i'll rid u of your biggest irritant(ME)...although this is a promise i wld gladly break i know that u wld want this from me, till today i never heard u say whether u like me or dnt, i only knew that i wld never love anyone tha way i love u, i dunno how long it will take for me to say that i myself have moved on or whether it will happen, i can surely say to you that from now on u will hear no part of me bothering you ever again...i always wanted to know what u felt about me, whether my heart lied to me, i guess i got my answer...you never did..you never ever liked me never even dreamt of going out wif me, u hated me...painful yet i cant deny the truth, all the things u said and done makes it so obvious wonder why i needed so long to grasp it...the casualties of love are never remembered and i guess i keep my vacant space in my heart open for my dreams of you...sorry for all that i have done to u..God Bless U idiot...I love you my dumb goldfish..